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  IN THE WILDERNESS

 

In a vision I was standing at the summit of a mountain.  A basket was hanging from my arm and I was busy picking stars like someone picking fruit from a tree.

One by one I carefully put the glittering stars into my basket.

“I do not understand why I am doing this, Abba Father,” I asked while putting another star into the basket.

“I want to empower you to do what seems to be impossible.  A gateway will open and you will be taken deeper into Me.”

Our Father’s explanation raised excitement in my spirit and I was curiously looking around.

In front of me was a spiral staircase and the very moment I set my foot on the first step, I was winged like an arrow into the cosmic sphere.  In the beginning I was a little disorientated but soon got used to this weird way of travel.

“Until now you could only see partially but I am about to reveal new things to you in this hour.”

At that moment I was travelling deeper into the nothingness of space.  I also realised that I have been separated from my basket with stars along the way.  However, I was suddenly joined by a flock of splendid white doves.

“You will dwell amongst My messengers on assignment, and deliver a new message, a fresh release of the prophetic voice.“

After a short silence He continued:  “I will restore you, little Hephzibah. Do not panic when I am in control.”

I followed the flight of the doves and was now part of them.  We moved in circles high above the pale white dunes of a desert.

Far down below, amongst the dry river-beds, I spotted an oasis; the green crowns of palm trees evident and then the blinking water well, like an eye, right in the centre of the lush-green area.

Light beams spiralled from the core of the well towards us.

“Little daughter, you do not find yourself in the loneliness of an earthly desert at this moment, but safely in the wilderness of My presence. 

“You have to discover My desert to understand where you are, but remember:  My wilderness differs from a desert on earth.

“In the desertedness of My presence you will find a school for messengers.  Here I teach them before dispatching them on special assignments.  They must be separated from worldly ways and have to rise above the crowds.  That is why I am taking you into the heavenly wilderness where we will be meeting eye to eye.”

“I understand Abba.  I am happy to be here and would like to stay in this desert of Yours.”

“You cannot stay in the desert permanently, but you can reside within Me forever; that you could do.”

High above I was still circling the oasis with the white doves all around me.

Then, drawn closer by the light from the well, we descended like tumbling leaves until I reached a point where I was at arm’s length from the core of the sparkling well.

From deep inside the water a message emerged:

“Prophetic insight will flow into your spirit and empower your discernment in this season, while a whole new world is unfolding inside you . . . My world in you as My Spirit invades yours.”

In the eye of the well an opening like a key hole appeared and I moved through cautiously.

It was dark on the other side.

An unfamiliar sensing threatened to overwhelm me and I searched for Abba Father’s presence immediately and called:

“I cannot see anything, Father.”

“You are in the wilderness, little one, the desertedness where I draw you closer to Me.  Come and discover Me in a new way.”

The area became illuminated in soft light and a calming presence was tangible.  I was convinced that this was home . . . a place to belong.  Inside the eye of the well, the very core of stillness; that is where I discovered home.

“Father, in the tranquillity of Your presence I found rest; in the eye of the well I found You.”

“Stay in the wilderness, daughter.  It is only I Who can take you out again.  Discover and enjoy our unity.  Soon you will enter the wilderness camp and be amongst those who went before you.”

In a very deserted place that I can only describe as ‘deep down’, I appreciated the presence of my dearest Abba Father when He said:

“You are in calm waters; no winds to steer you forth.  Let your ship just stay put and do not try to force anything.  Do not even hoist a sail but just hang on.  Wait for My breezes to take you forward.”

Inside this domain of deeper desolateness, another well emerged. Clear, fresh water calmly flowed over the sides and disappeared to somewhere, bringing a sparkle of life to the lonely place.

“Little lady, drink wholesome water from this new fountain, fresh water from the tamarisk well; the well of everlasting covenant.  Draw from this well and drink until you have quenched your thirst as nothing else can satisfy you except being with Me.

“Teach the Word and preach the Word.  Reveal the hidden truths in the Word so that it can become alive inside people.

“This is your assignment for this year:  Teach My Word.”

“I am so excited and happy, Abba,” I passionately whispered, feeling deeply privileged to be entrusted with this assignment because I simply love studying the Word.

“To love Me is to love My Word.  I am the Word Who became flesh. Direct My Children to return to the Word.  There they will become like trees planted at the river of life.  The leaves of these trees will bring healing to nations.

“Loving the Word releases a sweet fragrance, a sweet scent of honour, like a burnt offering and opens a portal of sweet love and worship that will reach My deepest presence.

“Come deeper, little Lady.”

The calm surface of the new well was suddenly disturbed as if somebody was stirring the water with great force.  The whirling movement opened a water shaft, spiralling downwards into the dark depths of the fountain.

I realised by myself that, ‘to come deeper’ as Father invited, I would have to go down this water-channel.

So, I went!

On my downwards journey it was amazing when I was allowed to pause at a variety of the most spectacular designs imprinted in the water-wall that surrounded me.  At some stage it was even possible to distinguish a handwritten inscription as I leaned forward to get a better view.  The message was in gold and each word was flashing independently.

It said:

Come closer, come deeper, come;

I wait on you at the table of the Lamb.

I want to feed you with new Words;

Giving birth to deeper insight and wisdom.

 

“Hephzibah, feed the babies, strengthen the matured and mentor the leaders.”

Shimmering jewels became visible as I tumbled deeper down the water-tube.

“Pick them,” I clearly heard.

Like ripe fruit the precious stones just dropped into my hand the moment I touched them. They then mysteriously disappeared into my body where they started to beat like little red-ripe hearts.

“The jewels of the Word will feed and stir the deepest pond of your spirit.  It is a season of entering the Pool of Living waters, the Pool of the Word; My City of Love.  That will bring healing and a deeper love for Me.

“Studying the Word is like entering the moving water of The Bath of Bethesda.  The deeper you enter the more precious jewels you will discover.

“This is available to everyone who enters the Well of Living waters inside the City of My Love.”

Much deeper I eventually reached what looked like the bottom of the well. A huge mirror-floor appeared, but every time I got closer, the floor shifted deeper down the water-shaft.

“Nobody will ever be able to get to the end because the Word is bottomless.  Mirror yourself and remember:  the deeper you dig the more understanding you will gain.”

After several attempts I eventually managed to get down to the mirror.  In the beginning it was a bit murky but gradually the reflecting surface became clearer.

I did not know where He so suddenly came from, but I was overwhelmed with joy when the image of the Messiah’s face became visible in the mirror-floor. 

“I am the face of the Word because I am the Word,” He immediately explained.

“Through deeper understanding of the written Word, you will discover the message of the hidden Messiah.  The Word is the mirror that reflects My image and identity.”

At that moment it struck me:  This is how Abba Father teaches us; by letting us experience a heavenly teaching in the unnatural and then communicates to us how to live Kingdom of Heaven on earth.  What a caring Father we serve!

Back inside the water-tube I could see various small compartments with little doors.  Each doorknob was made from a single pearl with a tiny scroll in the centre.  As I moved closer, the minute scrolls became alive and from deep down inside the well heavenly prophecies arose:

“Interpretations will be revealed as My children study and identify with the deeper meaning of the written Word.  Through studying the Word, they get equipped for their season of breaking fallow ground."

My journey down this marvellous water paradise ended.  Back in my prayer room a deep desire to spend more time in the presence of my Father lingered and covered me like a cloud.

In my spirit I was sitting at His feet, leaning against His legs.  He was sitting on something that I could not see.

“All I want is You, Abba Father.”

His response was like sweet aroma:  “I was waiting on you, little Hephzibah.  You are mine; you know that.”

I could not hold back the tears and my body was shaking. I knew I have come home. After months and weeks of wandering around in desolation, suffering and seeking His face, I could once again feel the warmth of His awesome presence.

“I feel exhausted Father.  I want to rest in Your Holy presence, not doing anything else but only nestling closer to You.  I need You Abba.  I need more of the sweet water from the oasis in the dry and dusty desert.”

“I hear you daughter.  I will refresh you and feed you.  New revelations will come your way.”

A white sheet was spread on green grass and I had to lie down. Dressed in a white garment I was carefully covered with a second white sheet.

“Now, rest in My presence and know that you are Mine.”

Two days later I was back at the side of the well in the centre of the oasis.

Yahushua was there, waiting on me.

I was over-excited like a little child, ran into His loving arms and held Him tight.

“At last you are back.  You were so busy lately,” He whispered.

For a while He was holding me close to His heart.  He then spread a colourful woven rug under an oasis-palm tree and sat down.

I spontaneously followed and sat next to Him.

“I want to lay a table for you in the desert.  You will feast while your greatest of enemies are watching.  Be still and know that I am yours and will always fight on your behalf.”

I looked up at Him and pressed His hands against my tear-stained cheek.

I was back in the rest of my Shepherd.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


  

 

 

 

   

WELCOME TO
OUR WEBSITE
 
  
 
   
  IN THE WILDERNESS

 

In a vision I was standing at the summit of a mountain.  A basket was hanging from my arm and I was busy picking stars like someone picking fruit from a tree.

One by one I carefully put the glittering stars into my basket.

“I do not understand why I am doing this, Abba Father,” I asked while putting another star into the basket.

“I want to empower you to do what seems to be impossible.  A gateway will open and you will be taken deeper into Me.”

Our Father’s explanation raised excitement in my spirit and I was curiously looking around.

In front of me was a spiral staircase and the very moment I set my foot on the first step, I was winged like an arrow into the cosmic sphere.  In the beginning I was a little disorientated but soon got used to this weird way of travel.

“Until now you could only see partially but I am about to reveal new things to you in this hour.”

At that moment I was travelling deeper into the nothingness of space.  I also realised that I have been separated from my basket with stars along the way.  However, I was suddenly joined by a flock of splendid white doves.

“You will dwell amongst My messengers on assignment, and deliver a new message, a fresh release of the prophetic voice.“

After a short silence He continued:  “I will restore you, little Hephzibah. Do not panic when I am in control.”

I followed the flight of the doves and was now part of them.  We moved in circles high above the pale white dunes of a desert.

Far down below, amongst the dry river-beds, I spotted an oasis; the green crowns of palm trees evident and then the blinking water well, like an eye, right in the centre of the lush-green area.

Light beams spiralled from the core of the well towards us.

“Little daughter, you do not find yourself in the loneliness of an earthly desert at this moment, but safely in the wilderness of My presence. 

“You have to discover My desert to understand where you are, but remember:  My wilderness differs from a desert on earth.

“In the desertedness of My presence you will find a school for messengers.  Here I teach them before dispatching them on special assignments.  They must be separated from worldly ways and have to rise above the crowds.  That is why I am taking you into the heavenly wilderness where we will be meeting eye to eye.”

“I understand Abba.  I am happy to be here and would like to stay in this desert of Yours.”

“You cannot stay in the desert permanently, but you can reside within Me forever; that you could do.”

High above I was still circling the oasis with the white doves all around me.

Then, drawn closer by the light from the well, we descended like tumbling leaves until I reached a point where I was at arm’s length from the core of the sparkling well.

From deep inside the water a message emerged:

“Prophetic insight will flow into your spirit and empower your discernment in this season, while a whole new world is unfolding inside you . . . My world in you as My Spirit invades yours.”

In the eye of the well an opening like a key hole appeared and I moved through cautiously.

It was dark on the other side.

An unfamiliar sensing threatened to overwhelm me and I searched for Abba Father’s presence immediately and called:

“I cannot see anything, Father.”

“You are in the wilderness, little one, the desertedness where I draw you closer to Me.  Come and discover Me in a new way.”

The area became illuminated in soft light and a calming presence was tangible.  I was convinced that this was home . . . a place to belong.  Inside the eye of the well, the very core of stillness; that is where I discovered home.

“Father, in the tranquillity of Your presence I found rest; in the eye of the well I found You.”

“Stay in the wilderness, daughter.  It is only I Who can take you out again.  Discover and enjoy our unity.  Soon you will enter the wilderness camp and be amongst those who went before you.”

In a very deserted place that I can only describe as ‘deep down’, I appreciated the presence of my dearest Abba Father when He said:

“You are in calm waters; no winds to steer you forth.  Let your ship just stay put and do not try to force anything.  Do not even hoist a sail but just hang on.  Wait for My breezes to take you forward.”

Inside this domain of deeper desolateness, another well emerged. Clear, fresh water calmly flowed over the sides and disappeared to somewhere, bringing a sparkle of life to the lonely place.

“Little lady, drink wholesome water from this new fountain, fresh water from the tamarisk well; the well of everlasting covenant.  Draw from this well and drink until you have quenched your thirst as nothing else can satisfy you except being with Me.

“Teach the Word and preach the Word.  Reveal the hidden truths in the Word so that it can become alive inside people.

“This is your assignment for this year:  Teach My Word.”

“I am so excited and happy, Abba,” I passionately whispered, feeling deeply privileged to be entrusted with this assignment because I simply love studying the Word.

“To love Me is to love My Word.  I am the Word Who became flesh. Direct My Children to return to the Word.  There they will become like trees planted at the river of life.  The leaves of these trees will bring healing to nations.

“Loving the Word releases a sweet fragrance, a sweet scent of honour, like a burnt offering and opens a portal of sweet love and worship that will reach My deepest presence.

“Come deeper, little Lady.”

The calm surface of the new well was suddenly disturbed as if somebody was stirring the water with great force.  The whirling movement opened a water shaft, spiralling downwards into the dark depths of the fountain.

I realised by myself that, ‘to come deeper’ as Father invited, I would have to go down this water-channel.

So, I went!

On my downwards journey it was amazing when I was allowed to pause at a variety of the most spectacular designs imprinted in the water-wall that surrounded me.  At some stage it was even possible to distinguish a handwritten inscription as I leaned forward to get a better view.  The message was in gold and each word was flashing independently.

It said:

Come closer, come deeper, come;

I wait on you at the table of the Lamb.

I want to feed you with new Words;

Giving birth to deeper insight and wisdom.

 

“Hephzibah, feed the babies, strengthen the matured and mentor the leaders.”

Shimmering jewels became visible as I tumbled deeper down the water-tube.

“Pick them,” I clearly heard.

Like ripe fruit the precious stones just dropped into my hand the moment I touched them. They then mysteriously disappeared into my body where they started to beat like little red-ripe hearts.

“The jewels of the Word will feed and stir the deepest pond of your spirit.  It is a season of entering the Pool of Living waters, the Pool of the Word; My City of Love.  That will bring healing and a deeper love for Me.

“Studying the Word is like entering the moving water of The Bath of Bethesda.  The deeper you enter the more precious jewels you will discover.

“This is available to everyone who enters the Well of Living waters inside the City of My Love.”

Much deeper I eventually reached what looked like the bottom of the well. A huge mirror-floor appeared, but every time I got closer, the floor shifted deeper down the water-shaft.

“Nobody will ever be able to get to the end because the Word is bottomless.  Mirror yourself and remember:  the deeper you dig the more understanding you will gain.”

After several attempts I eventually managed to get down to the mirror.  In the beginning it was a bit murky but gradually the reflecting surface became clearer.

I did not know where He so suddenly came from, but I was overwhelmed with joy when the image of the Messiah’s face became visible in the mirror-floor. 

“I am the face of the Word because I am the Word,” He immediately explained.

“Through deeper understanding of the written Word, you will discover the message of the hidden Messiah.  The Word is the mirror that reflects My image and identity.”

At that moment it struck me:  This is how Abba Father teaches us; by letting us experience a heavenly teaching in the unnatural and then communicates to us how to live Kingdom of Heaven on earth.  What a caring Father we serve!

Back inside the water-tube I could see various small compartments with little doors.  Each doorknob was made from a single pearl with a tiny scroll in the centre.  As I moved closer, the minute scrolls became alive and from deep down inside the well heavenly prophecies arose:

“Interpretations will be revealed as My children study and identify with the deeper meaning of the written Word.  Through studying the Word, they get equipped for their season of breaking fallow ground."

My journey down this marvellous water paradise ended.  Back in my prayer room a deep desire to spend more time in the presence of my Father lingered and covered me like a cloud.

In my spirit I was sitting at His feet, leaning against His legs.  He was sitting on something that I could not see.

“All I want is You, Abba Father.”

His response was like sweet aroma:  “I was waiting on you, little Hephzibah.  You are mine; you know that.”

I could not hold back the tears and my body was shaking. I knew I have come home. After months and weeks of wandering around in desolation, suffering and seeking His face, I could once again feel the warmth of His awesome presence.

“I feel exhausted Father.  I want to rest in Your Holy presence, not doing anything else but only nestling closer to You.  I need You Abba.  I need more of the sweet water from the oasis in the dry and dusty desert.”

“I hear you daughter.  I will refresh you and feed you.  New revelations will come your way.”

A white sheet was spread on green grass and I had to lie down. Dressed in a white garment I was carefully covered with a second white sheet.

“Now, rest in My presence and know that you are Mine.”

Two days later I was back at the side of the well in the centre of the oasis.

Yahushua was there, waiting on me.

I was over-excited like a little child, ran into His loving arms and held Him tight.

“At last you are back.  You were so busy lately,” He whispered.

For a while He was holding me close to His heart.  He then spread a colourful woven rug under an oasis-palm tree and sat down.

I spontaneously followed and sat next to Him.

“I want to lay a table for you in the desert.  You will feast while your greatest of enemies are watching.  Be still and know that I am yours and will always fight on your behalf.”

I looked up at Him and pressed His hands against my tear-stained cheek.

I was back in the rest of my Shepherd.